Another day

So it turns out I am scheduled for another surgery. . . . .

Kyle and I met the ophthalmologist on Thursday first thing in the morning.  He did some testing and concurred with the Headache Clinic that my headaches would improve with surgery.  They will cut through the left side of the left eye in the white area.  back behind the white area is a muscle that they will cut, retract 9 mm and attach again.  It is scheduled for April 14 (I think--I'm not by a calendar).  It is going to require anesthesia but is a relatively short 20 minute same day surgery.  The recovery should take around three days.  Simple.

My heart is rebelling against another surgery, though!  I so just don't want to deal with again!  Simple surgery, simple recovery, simple, simple, simple.  Compared to brain surgery this is nothing.  I think it is just the thought of it!  It is two years this month that I was last in the hospital and had a surgery.  This isn't really what I had in mind to "celebrate" the milestone.

Okay, I am really whining and that will get me no where.  I am thankful that another solution has been found.  As we have reflected on all the surgeries that I have had, we believe that the chiari surgery and getting the shunt were necessary at the time.  We don't know if this will eliminate the headaches and the doctors were quick to say that although it should help a lot they couldn't guarantee anything.  My body seems to be a mystery with very odd or unique problems.  Honestly I am not a hypochondriac or a person that craves medical procedures and hospital visits.  They seem to come knocking on my door over and over, though.

For now I am patching my left eye as much as possible.  One full day without it and I am pretty miserable by night time.  I hate going out in public with it patched, though, so that is a quandary.  Going back and forth several times can cause a bigger headache as well so I will see how things go.  :)  One day at a time!

Saturday

So far the test has been interesting.  It is very hard to be a one eyed person I have found!  Also, it feels a bit silly to wear glasses with paper over one side.

This morning I woke up feeling remarkably well.  Yesterday was a decent day although I was so exhausted again that I took a nap.  We struggled with what I should do today.  Finally, I just decided to take the patch off and see how I do.  Interestingly, I could feel almost a little bit of a "pull" in my right eye.  I don't really know how to say it any differently.  I will see how today goes.  At this point, in my mind the jury is still out on this whole thing. 

What I think that I will do is go without today and see how I feel.  Then make a decision tomorrow about covering the one eye or not.  I will probably go back and forth a few times to see if covering the eye is truly what is helping or if perhaps I am feeling better because of the botox treatment.

Thank you for the encouragement and prayers.  It is honestly quite discouraging to me to be dealing with the stronger headache again.