Saturday

We are together as a family again.  Oh, it is so hard in many ways to have one missing for reasons that are so hard.  I am exhausted and I just ache all over for all my kids and the hurt they are carrying.

Our youngest continues at home and has been doing well although this last 1 1/2 weeks was pretty hard on her, too.  We are working really hard at taking things a moment at a time and doing the best we can to love each child as they need.  We feel so inadequate!

Sunday

Life has been just plain difficult.  I've received a few notes asking me to post again and I have been at a loss for words.

We've pulled one of our kids out of school and are working with a therapist trying to get on top of some behavioral issues that are hurting the child as well as the family.  Major undertaking and a great deal of stress. All of our kids are really hurting.  Too many hard things have happened over the years of me not being well and it is really showing up.  We have a child in the hospital right now for depression.  That really hurts all of us.  My heart just aches.

So Mothers Day has been discouraging.  It seems that mothering has not gone so well for me.  I have four hurting kiddo's and although we are taking the steps that we think are best for each of the kids we don't know if they are the right steps.  We love each of them fiercely but that isn't enough.

Please pray for our family.  The Lord is the great Physician and the only one that can heal the many hurts in our family.