Sunday

Another Sabbath day at home--I would so prefer to be in church!

I am struggling with what to do next. Honestly, I would prefer that either the headache be much worse or better. This headache is bad enough that I can't tolerate much noise at all, but it is not bad enough that I feel miserable. It is hard going into a spinal tap not feeling miserable! :) So I am really thinking about not having it, but of course then I don't have a next step.

Although it would have been wise, I have not sent my medical records and scans to the doctors that I have mentioned before. Each week would begin and I would determine to do it and the end of the week would arrive and it wasn't done. In all honesty, I could have made it a priority. It has just been such a negative experience in the past that I just haven't wanted to deal with it. It is very disheartening to have specialists decline seeing me or not schedule appointments and plain out ignore me. I understand, to a point, why this happens but it is still discouraging. So now here I am with increased symptoms again and no where to go. Foolish me.