Wednesday

I seem to be going up and down like a yo-yo with my head, which matches what the barometer seems to be doing lately.  Tomorrow I will see the local neurosurgeon and I am hoping to have an adjustment.  So hoping that I can feel a little better!  I am still functioning and moving forward, but it seems like it is getting a little harder again.  And I am oh, so tired!  My energy level is just zip. 

The good news?  Saturday our older kids were gone for the day at All-State tryouts so I  made the decision to go with Kyle to bring Tara to her tutoring.  Riley came along, too.  We had a special time after tutoring going out for a pizza lunch and then we went to a movie together!!!  Huge for me and the first movie I have seen in the theater for a very long time!  We weren't sure how it would go, but I took some medication, put in my earplugs and we went for it.  I did pretty well!  I had to close my eyes during maybe 1/3 of the movie when there was a little more action.  We saw Dolphin Tale, which was a fantastic movie for kids and not a lot of action which made it more tolerable for me.  So that was a pretty big accomplishment and a special time that I could spend with our younger two kids.  I was lamenting the lack of special times particularly with them and now had the opportunity to do something so I am so thankful for that!

I have been thinking lately, though, that I am learning to be thankful that the Lord doesn't always answer our prayers with a yes.  Life is not so easy with my head these days again, but I am once again thankful to be on this earth yet being a mom to my kids and a wife.  So many days and weeks and months I have prayed for the Lord to take me to my eternal home and for now I am thankful that I am still here.  So I am grateful that the Lord's plan is better than my plan.