Better

My head is finally adjusting to the new pressure change. I had hoped that perhaps the headache would leave but it maybe slightly improved it. Thankfully it is still very tolerable now that I am used to the new pressure, so we keep moving forward.

Sometimes I am amazed at how tired I can become, and it is a tired that is hard to explain. Physically I am tired and mentally I am even more exhausted. Of course, that varies but I don't remember ever feeling such a total exhaustion like this before. Oh yes, I would get very tired and exhausted but this is a little different and a bit overwhelming sometimes. I suppose that will just continue to take time.

I am excited to report that my stomach--or probably more acurately my pancreas--seems to be improving a little bit. I ate a little bit of a pork chop and it went ok! Hamburger beyond a few bites still bothers me but I can see that I am making progress with meat and a few other things, which is encouraging.

I have been thinking about this illness and wonder sometimes. I continue to pray for recovery and restoration of health, but should I concentrate more on thanking God for the things that He has done for us through this? Perhaps the answer to attaining good health will always be "no." I can't honestly say that I am thankful for this illness because it is very hard, but I am so thankful for all that I have learned and the things the Lord has taught me through this. I am trying to spend much more time on thankfulness for many blessings but will continue to ask for good health. How many things did I take for granted before this happened? A lot! I guess I still do to a certain extent, but much less then I did before. I also yearn more and more for the Lord to come soon!

But I also look at my husband and kids and am very thankful that the Lord spared me once again so that I can continue being a wife and mom. A friend told me today that when she visited me in the hospital this summer that she really didn't think I would come home. I am thankful that my kids still have a mom and my dear husband has a wife, so we will keep moving forward and see what the Lord has in store for our lives.